My food issues are coming to the forefront again now that I’m not leaning on wine as a crutch. Why is it that I never feel satisfied?? What is this ridiculous need to consume MORE, when I don’t even feel hunger? For as long as I can remember, I’ve had issues with food. Am I being served enough? Is someone else’s portion larger? Will there be ENOUGH for everyone (me mostly)? I don’t even enjoy food, really. I eat quickly – I’m always first to clean my plate. And I’m EXACTLY like that with wine. Why did you pour her more than me?? Do we have ENOUGH? Why is she drinking that SO slowly? Is it rude to ask for a refill so quickly?
What is this all about? It is so mentally exhausting.
Day 6, no booze. I don’t even seem to be struggling with the not drinking, it’s the food issue that is really wreaking havoc with my brain.
Wish I could just be normal.